Today, sitting alone in the house, i got some quality time for introspection. Alone because.. everybody else is out of station and quality time ´cuz, had nothing else to do..
Well, i discovered that I am still not very sure whether i want to follow the path on which life is taking. Am so confused. I miss being with the people whom i love.. miss being in the comfort zone that they tend to create around me. and at the same time, I want to break free. Live life on my own. Challange the world, which has so mercilessly played with me, naming all that has happened, nothing more that fate. Now, is that four lettered word enough to describe all that has happened. Can anyone pack the torment, the humiliation in such a small word? you may think that the meaning of the word is deeper than what seems to the naked eyes. Also, people think that once everything is over, it gets erased. The Black board becomes black again for new things to be written with fresh consequences. Isn't it like questioning the memory of the member sitting on the top of the food chain? Its okay to eat fish, cuz they dont have any feelings, but, i ask myself, is it equally okay to Force lifelong punishment on to some poor soul?
To begin with, this is the first blog that i am starting on the internet.. Too many Questions I have, like,
How is a blog different from a diary?
Do u include your every feeling in the blog?
and, most important of all,
Who will have so much time to go through it?
I may not be knowing all of the answers but i hope the few people who care to go through it, will, help me find them..
Nonchalant, I begin..
